My bf took a picture of himself last night. I like this one. I think he is so cute. hehe.

I don't really speak much of him, nor do I mention that I'm in a relationship with him, but it doesn't mean I'm "not in" this relationship. I don't knock the hustle of other couples who ARE proud of their status & feels they have to tell the world, I just don't appreciate the constant status of someone who is in & out of these so-called relationships.

I'm proud of where my boyfriend & I have been up to where we are now. We are still constantly learning, I'm constantly learning, of him, about him, what he is about. Of course the same goes with him. And even though we've known each other since we were 7, been together for more than 2 years, I feel like there is still so much to learn, forgive, forget, enjoy..

Idk. Just felt like saying something.

Hello baby. I'm here.

Positive, positive, positive! Me, myself, got nothing to prove.

I wish I can finally put all these pent up emotions on paper, through dance, singing, something. I've got this major block, and although I'm feeling stable, I'd still want to put it out there. I want to bring 'em out. Maybe make a difference in the big scheme of things, maybe not. Just make room for more expressions.

Ugh. I'm just so content at the moment. I think we can make it. LOL

Blowin' it with me..

It works when I want it to work. Otherwise, this could have been over a long time ago. I told you I'll hold on until I can no longer do so, but the grip is loosened, & there's nothing you are doing about it. There is no change in the wind, only me adjusting to tribulations from which I am suffering.

I do it to myself. I blame myself for letting things get this far. But like I said, it should always work both ways. & this, Honey, is not a two way street. I wonder what I really mean to you. Questions with no answers, just constant reminders of what was, what is, & what it might look like in the future. I don't want that feeling.

Positive energy activates constant elevation.

You're bringing my hopes down, & not to mention the smile I graciously try to uphold. You're suppose to keep me up there with you. Nowadays, I wait for you, to finally just look my way, realize what I am to you. It's all the same when you tell me what you tell everyone else. I'm not that special.

I'm trying to get ahead.. My karma is building up.

Why hello love -=)

It's been awhile, but here I go...

I didn't ask for this, any of this, to happen. It came up & I vibed with it. You were never a choice, you were a glance; a look, then move on. However, I caught myself growing to care for you even more. A friend I once knew, & a friend I've come to know. How did I ever get so fond of you? I know it's not the chronic - that's our middle ground, haha; you're nothing, but something I expected - I guess what I mean is I know you, but I'm still getting to know you.

In my defense, I believe I know you.